If you Really Knew me.

If you really knew me you’d know that I love photography. That I am afraid to grow up.

You’d know that I secretly don’t follow my own advice, I cant seem to live by my life motto anymore.

If you really knew me you’d know that I spend way too much time stalking everyone on facebook.

You’d know that my biggest fear is getting fat when im older.

If you really knew me you’d know that I wish I was married and had a little baby right now even though I’m not ready for one.

You’d know that I have a hard time following through with what I say. That I really wish I could have been given that talent of singing.

If you really knew me you’d know that I act a lot tougher then I really am and I pretend I don’t care when I really do.

If you really knew me you’d know that I am weird. That I have my own opinions that no one can change

If you really knew me you’d know I love life.

My Story

Dear Diary,
Hows it goin? Yeah im doin pretty good you! High school is high school, everyone has to do it. Extra curricular activities are taking over though. I dont have any time for homework anymore and Im worried about him. I used to have such an impact on him but now its all over. I know he's off doing drugs, probably as we speak but some how I try to tell myself that he isn't. Drugs are illegal I just dont see how his parents dont find out. I dont get how he still gets away with it. When I was there for him he didnt do that stuff. He stopped for me. I gave up and now he is back to him self. Its all my fault but people still try to tell me its not. He'll learn someday... Hopefully.

Blurbs

Jesus, Take The Wheel. Carrie Underwood
Cebrina is driving on her way to Cincinnati on a snowy Christmas eve. She was going home to visit her parents. It was just her and her baby who was sleeping alone in the back seat. She was running way low on gas. She had, had a long hard year! Before she knew it she started spinning on ice on the road! She saw her life flash before her eyes. She threw her hand up in the air and prayed for god to help her. She made it to the shoulder and her car finally stopped. She looked back to see the baby still sleeping, Cebrina was so happy that her baby did not get hurt. She was so grateful to god.

Crazy Girl. Eli Young Band.
Kelly was crying because her and Josh just got in a fight. But he is trying to tell her that no matter what he will always love her and that he is not going anywhere. Lovers fight and thats what they are but everything will work out. Before Kelly came along Josh was living life all wrong. He is crazy about her and he loves her like crazy.

Stealing Cinderella
Chris went over to see Stephanie's dad, to sit down man to man. Chris was going to ask for Stephanie to marry him. Her dad left him in the living room alone to see all the pictures of Stephanie when she was little, playing cinderella and riding her first bike, bouncing on the bed, running through the sprinklers, dancing with her dad. Chris then realizes that to Stephanie he is prince charming but to her dad he is just some fella Stealing Cinderella.

Film Analysis

CRAZY. STUPID. LOVE.

Ordinary world: Cal is happily married to Emily

Call To Adventure: Emily wants a divorce, which comes as a huge surprise to Cal

Refusal To Call: He goes into denial, jumps out of a car and just does a lot of crazy things when he hears that's what Emily wants because he was never expecting it.

Meeting Mentor: He meets Jacob in a bar after he was openly talking to everyone he saw about how his wife cheated on him.

Crossing The Threshold: Cal agrees to let Jacob help him out. Which is a big step for him because he is nothing like him.

Test: After Cal watches Jacob a lot and learns from him its time for Cal to try to get a girl on his own. He walks up to the girl and he ends up being able to get her to come home with him that night

Approach: Cal and Emily start to talk more and it seems like she misses him and there might be a chance of things being fixed.

Ordeal:Cal and Emily go to their sons parent teacher conference and the teacher is one of the girls Cal slept with so Emily finds out that he has gone crazy and is no longer missing him or anything. Then Cal finds out that Jacob is now dating his daughter and freaks out because he has seen the way he treated girls and didnt want his daughter to be treated that way.

Reward: They all go to their sons graduation, Cal talks about love and make Emily so happy.

Resurrection: Cal decides to let Jacob date his daughter, and him and Emily seem like they are going to work everything out. 

Hero: Cal

Mentor: Jacob

Threshold Guardian: Jacob

Herald: Emily

Shapeshifter: Jacob

Shadow: Jessica

Trickster: Robbie

Shake The Dust

This is for all the people trying to be something there not.
For the girls who fall in love and no one falls back
For the people who never win
For the kids who get picked on

Shake The Dust

This is for all the kids who grew up without a mommy
For all the kids who grew up without a daddy

Shake the Dust

This is for the people who cant seem to remember
For the people who cant keep a job.
For the teenagers who want to get out
For the fat people.

Shake The Dust

This is for all the people out there who have regrets,
that never seem to leave there mind
SHAKE THE DUST.
LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS

Jealousy

Im jealous of the poem Im thinking about you by:
Because of they way he takes words and uses different meanings
Like when he says Im thinking about you like Hip Hop thinks about hoes, like gardeners think about hose!
Or when he is talking about money and he says cents but uses it in a sentence that would make it sense, and then he says let me go "change". He just does a really good job of keeping it very interesting and funny and just a very good poem all around.

http://speakforyourselflonepeak.blogspot.com/p/videos.html

I keep forgetting.

I keep forgetting that my life is going to end, and that I need to live it to the fullest.

I keep forgetting that im not a wizard and cant stop time.

I keep forgetting that regretting something is just a waste of my time.

I keep forgetting we will never own ourselves completely.

I keep forgetting that we only get one life.

And tonight is not the last time i'll see the light.